Chapter 171 - Shallow Feeling
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一十四洲 update:2022-07-11 14:59
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Immortal Lord, you are so pure.
Lin Shu couldn’t judge whether this was a praise or criticism for a moment. The only thing that was for certain was that Xiao Shao’s eyes were not normal.
He had a kind of paranoid and obsessed look. He was clearly saying ‘you’re pure’, but the meaning conveyed by the look in his eyes was that ‘I want to dirty you’.
He was pressed and couldn’t move. He was slightly out of breath and couldn’t help but gasp slightly.
Xiao Shao pulled out his fingers and leaned down to kiss him.
Lin Shu was firmly imprisoned by him and couldn’t move. In addition, he was being kissed deeply and unable to breathe. His whole body went limp.
Xiao Shao’s fingers were cold, so were his lips and teeth, as if he was out in the late autumn night and his whole body had cooled down.
Usually it was Lin Shu’s temperature that was so cold and Xiao Shao often held his hands and warmed them.
Now this man had returned back to him from the sea of blood, but it was Lin Shu’s turn to warm Xiao Shao up.
He wrapped his arms around Xiao Shao and snuggled tightly to him, he stopped the process of the Sword Pavillion’s mental technique and tried to get his body temperature to rise.
When Xiao Shao’s temperature finally started to normalize, his hair and clothes were almost scattered.
But Xiao Shao had no intention of stopping. He still pressed Lin Shu on the bed, grinding his teeth and biting his earlobes.
“Xiao Shao……”
Lin Shu tried to talk to him, but his voice was extraordinarily weak and hoarse due to the sheer force used by the other party.
Xiao Shao was sober and Lin Shu could feel it.
But Lin Shu didn’t know why he was in this state.
He struggled a few times, but could not struggle free. After absorbing the core which was filled with grievances and resentment, Xiao Shao’s cultivation reached a terrifyingly high level. Facing such Xiao Shao, Lin Shu felt like a small animal who was dominated and played with at will.
He could only shout “Xiao Shao”.
Xiao Shao finally replied, “I’m here.”
“Xiao Shao……” Lin Shu was terrified for some reason, and his voice trembled slightly: “What’s wrong with you?”
For some reason, the current Xiao Shao had the aura of more than one living person.
——Although it was only a trace.
He stared at Xiao Shao, who had himself reflected in his eyes.
The look in this person’s eyes was slightly confused: “I……”
Lin Shu touched his face: “What’s wrong with you.”
Xiao Shao held his wrist and slowly brought his hand down.
And finally pressed the hand on the left side of his chest.
Lin Shu was shocked.
His hand was clearly placed on the position of the heart, but there was no heartbeat.
He counted the seconds, and after an unknown period of time, a slight vibration was finally felt under the palm of his hand.
There was another long silence, and after the silence, there was another heartbeat.
Xiao Shao said: “They are still crying.”
Lin Shu recalled the crying and wailing he had heard in the sea of blood.
The voices that had emanated from the boundless sea of blood were sharp, painful, heart-piercing, layer upon layer.
Xiao Shao had taken the entire sea of blood, and the resentment that writhed in the sea of blood, within himself. Those cries disappeared from the world, but they began to cry constantly in Xiao Shao’s sea of three spiritual souls and seven physical souls.
Lin Shu saw that Xiao Shao had curled his lips.
His smile seemed to be stained with blood, as if it came from the boundless netherworld.
He was nothing like a human being, but like a thousand-year-old demon.
“I can’t see the outside world clearly.” Xiao Shao said.
Lin Shu: “.……Huh?”
Xiao Shao let go of his wrist and slid his fingertips on the side of his neck: “I can only see the world like a sea of blood, there is no boat to cross, and all living beings are ragged, resentful ghosts……weeping day and night.”
He tilted his head and looked around the room: “Here too.”
Lin Shu tried to understand the meaning behind Xiao Shao’s words.
He heard Xiao Shao slowly continued to say: “All the beings are calling me.”
Lin Shu: “How do they call you?”
Xiao Shao pressed his throat with his right hand: “There are hundreds of millions of them, crying and laughing, floating in the sea of k200K;k200K;blood, inviting me back and calling me into the demon world. They are saying the world is dirty and would not hold up long. “
Lin Shu tried to imagine the scene in Xiao Shao’s eyes.
He followed Xiao Shao’s words and thought of a vast sea of blood. The blood mist on the sea was churning, and the blood evil Qi was ferocious and terrible.
Buddhism says that the sea of suffering is boundless. This sea of blood was the whole world’s suffering and the floating and sinking sea of suffering of all sentient beings.
The resentment and hatred of all living beings have long turned into ghosts that hated dynasties and the whole world.
What did they want?
They wanted Xiao Shao to assimilate with them, wanted him to hate the world and kill the world.
So the hundreds of millions of ragged and resentful ghosts cried and laughed together to make Xiao Shao leave the mortal world and enter the demon world, making him abandon the mortal world.
What will happen then?
Xiao Shao would no longer be a person who would suppress resentment, but instead become the leader of these ghosts, or he would completely lose his mind and couldn’t restrain these resentments. Then these resentment would return to the world, and the chaos of the world would begin.
Xiao Shao’s hand on his neck slowly tightened.
Lin Shu was slightly suffocated.
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He looked into Xiao Shao’s eyes.
A pair of dark, dull and indifferent eyes.
But in his movements, there was an obsessiveness in them.
Lin Shu realized that he could not share the burden for Xiao Shao, nor did he know how to comfort him.
He opened his mouth, and finally only said one sentence: “.……I am here.”
“I know.” Xiao Shao leaned over.
The feeling of pressure and suffocation made Lin Shu slightly dizzy.
He pushed Xiao Shao.
It was obviously an outward push, but because of an unstable stance and weak arms, not only was there no effect, instead it seemed like he wanted to welcome or refuse.
“The world is like a sea of blood……” He heard Xiao Shao’s slightly husky voice: “Only Immortal Lord is clean here.”
Lin Shu: “Really.”
“Yes.” Xiao Shao said in a low voice, “Because the Immortal Lord’s love for all things is too shallow…… He has no hatred and no resentment. Even though the world is a sea of bitter suffering, the Immortal Lord is still pure, like a paradise. ”
Lin Shu was out of breath, and a layer of haze covered his eyes.
He said, “I don’t know……”
In a trance, the sky and the earth all turned into nothingness. He could only hear Xiao Shao’s voice: “I am haunted by grievances, suffering from seven emotions, and must …… be enlightened by the Immortal Lord.”
Lin Shu: “How to enlighten you?”
“Pull me through.” Xiao Shao’s voice was hoarse and confusing.
“Immortal Lord…… pull me across.”
Lin Shu breathed hard. His voice was so weak that he didn’t seem to belong to himself: “I……will pull you through……”
His neck was slowly released.
What happened later was so chaotic that he didn’t know how to describe it.
Because even his memory had several blank spots.
He just remembered that he seemed to have died many times and cried many times. There was a blurred white light in front of him.
His voice was completely hoarse and he couldn’t make any sound. Maybe it was because he cried too much and he was dehydrated. His whole body had lost all strength.
Xiao Shao held him and fed him water.
The snow-white jade bottle containing the immortal dew of Wulian Mountain finally made him recover a little bit of clarity.
Xiao Shao held down his hand and didn’t allow him to drink by himself. He could only be fed. Lin Shu could only suck the thin edge of the cup and drink half of it. He saw that Xiao Shao’s look gradually changed and seemed to want to eat something else.
He couldn’t remember exactly how long it had been.
Later, it seemed that a fixed reaction had been formed. Whenever he smelled the cold fragrance on Xiao Shao’s body at the end of his nose, his body would soften. And the moment Xiao Shao’s fingers touched his skin, his whole being would tremble uncontrollably.
He couldn’t remember when Xiao Shao had let him go.
Maybe not at all.
He should have lost consciousness at one point and then woke up drowsily at another.
After all, the body that was in the realm of Tribulation was different from a mortal. Even if it was a bone injury, it could heal itself in two days.
But when Lin Shu woke up, there were faint traces on his body.
There was no strange feeling in his body, but there was a lingering laziness in his soul.
He opened his eyes and looked at Xiao Shao.
Then he chose to cover his face again with a quilt.
Xiao Shao gathered his shoulder across the quilt: “.…… Baby.”
Lin Shu didn’t want to talk.
He stretched out his hand, his hands fumbling around in the entangled quilt and then finally pressed it against Xiao Shao’s chest.
Under the layer of silk, he felt warm, no longer cold.
There was a heartbeat; quite stable. It was only a little slower than ordinary people, which could be ignored.
His brain was still slow in starting up. He recalled slowly. He felt that when he was being tumbled and rolled by Xiao Shao, the man’s temperature and heartbeat were slowly rising.
He thought for a while and decided to look at Xiao Shao.
If the temperature rise represented that Xiao Shao’s mind had returned, he should be able to see the shame on the man’s face.
He pulled the quilt down a little and showed his eyes.
Xiao Shao hugged him: “Baby.”
Lin Shu examined Xiao Shao.
Still a little abnormal and lacking expression.
But also a lot more normal. The eyes were a little gentle.
Lin Shu was expressionless as he was kissed by him.
Xiao Shao: “Are you okay?”
Lin Shu: “I’m not feeling good.”
Xiao Shao kissed him again.
No amount of kissing would make him feel good.
Lin Shu slowly burrowed into the quilt again and turned a deaf ear to the crow’s words that followed.
He would never be fooled by flowery words again in his life.
The only one who could get him out of the quilt was himself.
He decided to finally come out.
Incidentally, he touched his brocade bag from the head of the bed. He took out the bronze mirror and put it in front of Xiao Shao’s eyes.
Then he asked Xiao Shao, “What do you see now?”
Xiao Shao: “It’s still the sea of blood.”
That was a little strange.
The Mirror had some functions of foretelling the future.
At the very beginning, when Xiao Shao had looked in the mirror in the Qingming cave, he said he saw a sea of blood.
Later, when the Peach Blossom Land was slaughtered by the Great Wizard. He thought that the blood of Peach Blossom Land was the sea of blood seen by Xiao Shao in the mirror at that time.
That had already happened, but even after that Xiao Shao said, it was still the scene of blood that he was seeing.
Then he went to the top of the Great Wizard’s tower and saw the churning sea of blood.
He again thought this should be the scene seen by Xiao Shao in the mirror.
But now, Xiao Shao said, he could still see the sea of blood.
Lin Shu turned the mirror back and looked at it.
The wedding room.
It was still himself with something pierced on his chest.
The shape of that thing, he couldn’t see it clearly; it was sharp, like the spiky tip of a thorn.
And his eyes in the mirror were still so clear and gentle.
This man in the mirror seemed to be willing.
That’s it.
Lin Shu looked at himself in the mirror and felt that he was a little indisputable.
But when he thought about himself outside the mirror, he was no better, he never disputed this man’s wishes.
He would give Xiao Shao whatever he wanted.
Maybe one day, on the bed in Phoenix Mountain Villa, Xiao Shao would want his life.
Then he’ll probably give it, too.
Xiao Shao asked him, “What do you see?”
Lin Shu had never told Xiao Shao about this scene.
But he was really bullied last night. He felt a little wronged, so he was a bit vindictive and told him.
“I saw you put a knife in my heart.”
Xiao Shao seemed to be slightly dazed.
Then he said: “.…… I will never.”
Lin Shu spoke with facts: “You choked my neck last night.”
——Although he didn’t know whether it was last night or not, as the time and day in the cave was not very clear, he still felt that it had been a long time.
Xiao Shao looked at him for a long time and said, “At that time, you wanted to escape. I wanted to keep you with me forever. ”
What kind of sick talk was this?
Lin Shu didn’t want to talk to him.
Xiao Shao continued to make some more perverted remarks: “The world is so big and full of evil blood…… I wanted to live with you for a long time.”
Lin Shu decided to get up, dress and wash.
He put on flowing snow white clothes and buckled the plain silver wide strap. In the mirror he looked like a decent and serious sword cultivator.
Last night, he was made to break down by Xiao Shao, into someone who said whatever Xiao Shao wanted him to say, until he did not know himself.
Lin Shu turned back and saw that Xiao Shao had also gotten up.
He sat by the bed, half leaning against the bedpost, with long black hair scattered and his gorgeous outer robe in disarray
Dark eyes, looking at himself abnormally.
Lin Shu approached.
Xiao Shao said, “It’s slow again.”
Lin Shu knew he was talking about his heartbeat.
The day when his heart stopped completely was the day when Xiao Shao left the world and assimilated with the sea of blood.
The way to let him return to the living world was probably to be with Lin Shu, like a shadow, or totally inseparable.
He said that Lin Shu was the only pure place in the world.
Lin Shu came closer.
Xiao Shao looked up at him and said, “Immortal Lord, you can’t leave.”
Lin Shu’s eyes misted again.
Towards Xiao Shao, he could never refuse nor beseech.
Xiao Shao said he was too shallow about everything in the world.
But everything in the world, in the past 20 years, had given him nothing but false words.
Until Xiao Shao treated him well.
Only then did he know that he could also be put at the top of a person’s heart.
Now Xiao Shao feeds the sea of blood with his body and wanted the mercy of the Immortal Lord.
Then he knew that he could also be believed and admired.
He reached out his hand towards Xiao Shao.
Xiao Shao took his hand, brought it to his lips and kissed it gently.
Then he lifted his head and looked up.
——That obsessed look.
It was as if the faithful were asking for divine favor, and all beings were waiting for grace.
Lin Shu leaned down and hugged him—and then was taken to the bed by Xiao Shao.
He didn’t do anything more, he just hugged him and didn’t speak. Time seemed to stand still.
They just held each other tighter and tighter, as if they were dependent on each other.