Chapter 384: Having A Child
Noah caught his breath while Luo tiredly laid her body on top of him. He looked at the hyperactive woman in his arms and chuckled, "Why are you so hell bent on making love the whole day and even the whole night today? It's almost midnight baby and you haven't thought of sleeping…"
Luo tilted her head and asked, "Did I tire you out? Do you want to sleep now?"
Noah scoffed and said, "Aren't you questioning my virility now? If I said I'm tired then I guess I will look like an incapable man unable to satisfy my wife? Won't I?"
Luo laughed and winked at her husband before moving to his side and hugged him.
"I want to work harder…" Luo whispered with raised brows and a meaningful smile.
"Huh?" Noah hummed, sounding confused.
"Work harder to give you a baby." Luo straightforwardly informed.
"What?!! A baby!! Do you mean you want us to have a baby? But why? I do not want to be a father," Noah uttered, sounding a little shocked.
Luo moved sideways and raised her head to look at Noah with questioning eyes. She wondered if she heard him right. Did he mean that he did not want a baby at all?
Noah touched her cheek and gently caressed it with the back of his hand. He didn't know how to explain to Luo how he felt.
"Don't take me wrong Luo, it's just that I want to focus on you. I mean we don't need to rush to have a baby right now because at this point I'm not ready to become a father. In fact I had never even thought about having my own children.
I am not even sure if I can be a good father, so we must not think of making a baby yet. I will take extra precautions from now on baby, that you have reminded me of this matter. I just want us to enjoy each other's company for now.
I don't know if I will ever be able to prepare myself to share you with anyone, be it our own children." Noah explained with a faint smile.
Luo tried to fake a smile. Then she felt Noah put her head on his arms before he hugged her tightly.
"Rest for now… We are both exhausted… we can continue later…" he whispered and planted a sweet kiss on her cheek.
Luo felt all her excitement a while ago turned into damnation. She bit her lip because she felt disappointed but she tried to be rational by thinking it was only her wish and how dumb of her to not ask Noah about his opinion on having a child first.
She tried not to cry but she felt like crying somehow. Having a baby with her husband was like seeing the fruit of their love in front of her eyes. How she wanted to be a mother of his children, but all her hopes were washed away by Noah.
She wondered if Noah would let the child stay if she fell pregnant accidentally or ask her to abort! Her heart trembled with the thought and she immediately decided to not think about children until he agreed with her as well.
She turned around and moved with her back to Noah who held her closer within his arms. He seemed to be asleep already while Luo's eyes were empty and she couldn't sleep at all. Her mind was full of all kinds of thoughts and her tears fell silently. She closed her eyes and tried her best not to sob.
She eagerly wanted to have a baby, but Noah did not want it yet so she felt heartbroken though she tried her best not to, by silently scolding herself instead for assuming that both Noah and her had somehow had the same thoughts about having a child.
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The next morning, Luo felt so sulky that she did not go to Lana and Liam's office because Lana would surely ask her how wildly she spent her previous day, and she did not want her friend to notice how disappointed she was.
She looked at her mobile phone and the mobile app that Lana downloaded for her.
"I guess I will have to use this to prevent myself from getting pregnant by tracking my fertile days I guess?" she mumbled with a crumpled face. She was so annoyed at her husband that she wanted to sleep somewhere else that day to avoid him, so she chose to visit her parents to stay there also with them for a few days.
She did not tell Noah yet since she did not also have the appetite to talk to him. She even pretended to be asleep when he left. As she expected, her mother was too surprised with her sudden arrival.
"What's going on? You did not tell us you're coming? Did you and Noah quarrel?" Luo's mother asked when Luo said that she would sleep in their home for a while.
She smiled and said, "No… I just miss you so much." She also hugged her mother tightly.
Her mother shook her head because Luo just visited them last weekend with Noah. Just looking at her long sad face and she could tell something happened.
Her mother gently pushed her to look at her face and said, "No you don't. I can see that sad look on your face. Something is bothering you for sure, so come on and spill it out. You know your mom is good at giving advice…"
Luo shrugged her shoulders and then she exhaled loudly.
She too wanted to vent her emotions out and her mother was her best friend, so she whimpered, "Noah doesn't want to have a baby, and I'm so annoyed because of this mom!"
"What?!" Luo's mother gasped.
"Mom… I said your son-in-law apparently doesn't want to have a baby!" Luo bawled. She was really feeling heartbroken that she wanted to pour her heart out.
"Why? Did he say why?" Her mother pondered so Luo told everything what Noah said and why he did not want to have a baby.