“I’m very serious. Unless you think that I don’t like you.”


  I suddenly felt that Chu Yuan’s body trembled slightly, I was a little puzzled. After a while, I heard her softly say, “I don’t know…”


  I was dazed for a second. Of course, I was just joking, but Chu Yuan’s answer surprised me. What surprised me more was that my mood suddenly became inexplicably confused, and my body seemed to be pricked by needles; I felt a wave of abnormal pain. Even the beating of my heart became irregular. ‘Does Chu Yuan really see me, this elder brother, that way?’


  “Which… which kind of like?”


  Chu Yuan’s voice was so low that I could hardly hear it, so l subconsciously asked, “What?”


  “It’s nothing,” Chu Yuan seemed to be a little flustered. She shook her head hurriedly, and her arms around my waist hugged me even tighter as if she was deliberately pressing her breasts on my back, “Elder Brother, do you not like women with big breasts?”


  “What!” I almost choked on my own saliva, “What nonsense are you talking about?”


  “I’m not talking nonsense,” Chu Yuan seemed to have misunderstood what I meant, and said seriously, “Elder Sister… Ziyuan… in the past, and Cheng Liusu now, the size of their breasts are almost the same as mine… and Dongfang. You seem to have a special affection for this type of girl.”


  If possible, I certainly hoped that Liusu’s breasts could be plumper, but the origin of two people’s feelings was not all because of the external beauty, but more from the resonance of the souls, “why do you make it sound like I am some kind of pervert? And do I really look like I have some ulterior motives when I treat them nicely? Your Elder Sister Xiaoye has big breasts, but have I ever treated her badly?”


  If Dong Xiaoye heard this, she would definitely break into my room and throw me directly out of the window…


  “If you are treating all women nicely, then you are a big pervert!”


  “I’m also treating all men nicely, why don’t you say that I am gay?”


  “How could you be gay?” Chu Yuan answered with confidence, and then smiled, “you are bisexual, and you are interested in both men and women.”


  “You bratty girl, are you looking for a beating?” I couldn’t hit Chu Yuan, so I grabbed her thigh that was pressing on me, turned over, and pressed on her body with my back. The little girl was not as strong as I was, so she giggled and begged for mercy.

  She was only wearing shorts, so I could feel her smooth leg easily. It made me feel like I was some kind of perverted uncle, so I simply let her go when I heard her begging me.

  After the frolic, Chu Yuan still didn’t let go of me. Girls’ minds were really like the ocean, and their emotions were like ocean waves, fluctuating, making it hard to tell what they were really thinking, “Elder Brother, do you still blame me?”


  This sudden sentence made me confused, “blame you what?”


  Chu Yuan said quietly, “if it weren’t for me, you wouldn’t have lost your contact with Elder Sister Ziyuan… I…”


  Chu Yuan finally let go of me. She retracted her hand to wipe her tears. She cried.

  I turned around and wanted to turn on the bedside lamp, but she hugged my arm and said, “don’t turn on the light!”


  She was afraid that I would see her tears. I was dazed and subconsciously reached out my hand to touch her face. It was wet. It turned out that not only women were made of water, but girls were also made of water.

  She buried her head in my chest, seemingly very scared. I knew that she who had high self-esteem was unwilling and had no courage to recall that thing. It was exactly because she never knew how to face that mistake she had made in the past, and she didn’t know how to make up for it, so she did that stupid thing that year.

  She often put on that unreasonable arrogant look in front of me, and never admitted her mistakes even if she was in the wrong. Maybe, it was not that she liked to be unreasonable, but that she was afraid that when she admitted her mistakes, it would remind her of what she had done to Ziyuan.

  Chu Yuan felt guilty because she made me feel like I owed Xiao Zi a lot.

  “There is no need to mention the things in the past. We have our lives, and Xiao Zi has her life. From the day she was taken away by her father, we are destined to live in a different world. Losing contact or not, what’s the difference? Two people in different environments will always go further and further away from each other…”


  “But, she likes you, and you like her…”


  I stroked Chu Yuan’s head and smiled, “I was still a kid at that time, how could I know what is like and what is dislike? We were friends who grew up together at best. Silly girl, you have watched too many Korean dramas.”


  “Don’t mess up my hair!” Chu Yuan sat up, arranging the messy long hair that had been tousled by me with my hands. She then looked down at me who was lying flat and suddenly coldly snorted, “if Elder Sister Ziyuan really likes you, I really feel sorry for her. You are not romantic at all.”


  I chuckled and said, “what do you know about romantic?”


  “A high school student is definitely not a kid, she definitely likes you, I can see it…”


  “Yes, yes,” I smiled, “She’s not a kid, but were you not a kid at the time?”


  “I…” I thought Chu Yuan would refute me, but she didn’t. Instead, she lay down on my shoulders and said quietly, full of self-blame, “I was a kid, otherwise I wouldn’t have done something that stupid…”


  My heart was shaken, and the weak and pale little face she had when she was lying on the hospital bed appeared in my mind, “let’s not talk about it anymore. It is time to go to sleep, you still have school tomorrow.”


  “Mhm…” Chu Yuan replied absentmindedly.

  She was just a little kid back then. However, even though I knew that Chu Yuan was just a little kid, that still didn’t become a reason for me to forgive her, so I paid a painful price for my own intolerance and narrow-mindedness… I felt guilty that I wasn’t able to contact Xiao Zi, but I felt even more guilty that I hurt Chu Yuan. Because to this day, she still remembered that incident…


  The moonlight disappeared outside the window, and it was misty. If it were not for the muffled thunder, I probably wouldn’t even know when it began to rain.

  “Alright, I almost forgot it…”


  I was about to discuss with Chu Yuan whether she could sleep without hugging me, or at least not putting her leg on me. This bratty girl always liked to make some small movement, her leg always moved up and down on my lower body. That kind of body friction made me very uncomfortable. Little Chu Nan’s eagerness made me always question whether I had ethical and moral principles, but I didn’t expect that she would speak first, “Elder Brother, Sister Booby asked Sister Xingyu to pass a message to you…”


  ‘Xiao Yike?’ I was very surprised, and I immediately became fully awake. ‘This minx finally decides to stop avoiding me.’


  “What is it?”


  Perhaps because of the pleasant coolness of the rainy night, Chu Yuan was already drowsy, and she spoke lethargically, “she said that she didn’t contact me recently because she is about to take an exam and she has a lot of homework to do. Her English is very poor, so she needs to concentrate on reviewing. She has locked her phone in the drawer, so I can’t get through to her. But if you are willing to treat her to a meal at Great Waves seafood restaurant to reward her for studying very hard, she will agree to come to our flat to stay overnight…”


  I simply refused, “not a chance.”


  Chu Yunsheng asked hurriedly, “why? Do you not like her staying overnight in our flat? My writing has encountered a new bottleneck, and I need her guidance, elder brother, please…”


  “It’s useless to act like a baby, didn’t you say that she is going to take an exam? How can she have free time to guide you in writing novels? If she has that time, it is much better for her to spend that time remembering English vocabulary. Also, you are about to take exams too, right? I haven’t seen you reviewing your study. Not to mention that Dongfang, that little brat, is also in our flat. If you three girls get together, do you still want to study?” It was not that I was reluctant to pay for the meal, I was reluctant to admit that what I did was wrong when she put on such airs. Asking me to treat her to a seafood meal? No matter how I looked at it, it felt like I was apologizing to her and asking her to forgive me.

  Although I had already thought about coaxing her before, when she showed this attitude, it just dispelled that thought from my mind instantly. She almost splashed Mo Fei with feces, and she still believed that she did the right thing? I wouldn’t mind coaxing her, after all, I was older than her, but the premise was that she must recognize her own mistakes; otherwise, wouldn’t I be supporting her behavior and indulging her?

  “Hmph, I usually study very hard, and I can get a good score without reviewing!”


  “Study is not for getting a good score, but to apply what you have learned,” I tried to educate her, “Excessive self-confidence is arrogance. Yuan Yuan, you are not humble enough, this is not good. It is a good thing that you are smart, but you must be humble…”


  “I know, I know. I just need to listen to you, right?” Chu Yuan interrupted me impatiently, “Mom says this to me every day, it is so annoying. I get it. So you can stop educating me. The summer vacation is coming anyway, so I can invite Sister Booby to come over to play with me at that time.”


  ‘That’s right. I must let that little minx know my strong attitude.’


  “By the way, there is one more thing that I have to tell you about.”


  Chu Yuan’s serious tone gave me a headache. Generally, when this girl was serious, what she said was not necessarily serious, “What is it this time? My dear little sister, aren’t you sleepy?”


  Chu Yuan yawned as if to show that she was also very sleepy, and said angrily, “if you don’t agree, I won’t let you sleep!”


  “Okay, okay, what is it?”


  Chu Yuan cleared her throat like she was making a very serious announcement and said word by word, “you are not allowed to resign from Fengchang!”


  Her voice was soft, and it was like a bomb blowing up in my mind, “What? !”