Chapter 128
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Muzixi's heart is suddenly very disordered and disordered. It seems that there is a wild animal in muzixi's heart. He is running around and can't find the exit. Muzixi wants to shout out his anger.
When she got off the ground, she walked barefoot on the carpet. She had no sleep. She wanted to go back to city A. she wanted to see the current rinovan with her own eyes.
Chenghaotian saw that the dinner was ready, he pushed the door open gently, but saw muzixi walking restlessly back and forth. He asked strangely, "weren't you just sleeping? What's the matter? "
"I want to go back to city a, and now I want to go back. My heart is just like the fire. My heart is so miserable, so miserable." Muzixi said, covering his chest.
This move, let chenghaotian frighten, he walked to muzixi in front of a few steps, some worried looking at muzixi's face: "what's the matter? This is, why so pale? Is it hard? " Chenghaotian's eyes are full of worries.
Muzixi seems to have some people who don't know the man in front of him. He has always been the king of chenghaotian. His eyes are full of anxiety. Is this him?
Muzixi looks at chenghaotian suspiciously. Chenghaotian frowns and asks, "what are you doing watching me like this?"
Muzixi quickly lowered his head and shook his head: "no, I just think you are different from usual It's a little strange. "
Recently, she has been feeling strange because of his actions
"I'll call Qiu Wanqing and let him come and show you." Chenghaotian said he was going to the study to get a phone.
Muzixi stopped chenghaotian: "no, I'm worried. It may be the normal reaction of pregnant women. I want to go out for a walk, OK?"
Chenghaotian looks at muzixi's eager eyes, with a hot red light on his face. He can only step back: "OK, you can go for a walk, or I will accompany you."
Muzixi just wants to think about something seriously, and naturally refuses to let chenghaotian accompany him.
Chenghaotian saw that in addition to her hesitation, he turned out of the bedroom door and said nothing.
After a while, Nancy knocked on the door and came in, saying, "Miss Zixi, I heard that you want to go out for a walk. Why don't you eat first and I'll walk with you again, OK?"
Like her friends, Nancy nodded at muzixi, which was more comfortable than being with Cheng Haotian.
After eating a few mouthfuls of rice, muzixi was ready to push away the plate in front of him. Chenghaotian said coldly, "eat some more. You can't nourish my child with such a large amount of food."
At first, muzixi heard chenghaotian let him eat more. He was slightly moved, but he was drenched with cold water by the last sentence
Muzixi shook his head: "I can't eat any more. I'll vomit if I eat any more. I'll eat again later. Nancy, let's go."
Nancy is ready to go out with muzixi
Chenghaotian watched muzixi and Nancy go farther and farther, and suddenly he felt very tired. Throwing himself on the big bed, he was suddenly hurt under his neck. He felt a mobile phone. It's from muzixi.
He opened muzixi's cell phone and looked at the call record. The top one was Lin nuofan?!
He seemed to understand immediately why muzixi would feel upset and would want to leave here in a frenzy. All the reasons were because of the phone call of Lin nuofan!
Isn't he good to her? Why, why to still want such, flustered want to escape from oneself side?!
Chenghaotian sits up and slams his cell phone on the wall. It's scattered all over the place.
As if not too much, Cheng Haotian stood up, took a box of cigarettes, stood on the balcony, looked at the direction of the stream in the distance, he wanted to run to the side of muzixi very much, asked her, what else could he do?
But he suppressed his anger and all the questions he wanted to ask.
Lit a cigarette, Cheng Haotian sat on the cane chair on the balcony, looked at the darkness in the distance, and once again, felt his helplessness
It's still that stream. Muzixi takes off his shoes and puts his feet in the cold stream. The moon hasn't risen yet. There are many stars shining in the sky, just like a diamond sprinkled on the blue velvet cloth by God.
Nancy looked at muzixi's sad expression and asked, "Miss Zixi, you are very unhappy. What's the matter?"
"I used to have a very good big brother who was very good to me. He would care about my life and bring me delicious food. When I saw my father who was seriously ill, he always tried to save me a lot of money. In every corner of my life, he had his body image."
"Later, I met a disaster in my life. I couldn't escape. I had to give in to my father's high medical expenses and let him bully me. Just, this person does not know why, quietly in my heart root
"Between us, it's just a relationship between the master and the lover. I dare not expect him to love me up to now. That's a very distant extravagance. Nancy, do you know what extravagance is? For example, if I have only one dollar, but I want to buy one million bags, can one dollar buy one million bags? No. ""He did a lot of things that hurt me. He thought I didn't want the baby in my belly. He forced me to be with him. The baby was gone. I hated him, but he imprisoned me so that I didn't even see my father's last face, so I killed myself." At this point, muzixi exposed the scar on her wrist, and Nancy saw a white trace.
Nancy knew that muzixi just wanted to find someone to talk to, and she didn't interrupt. She just silently accompanied muzixi and listened to her talk about him and his story.
"When I saw him, I was so scared that I couldn't breathe, so he let me go. At this time, I didn't expect that the big brother came to me, and we were equal. He gave me support and courage. I almost thought I loved him. We even had a wedding, but I didn't say I would like to I was forced to cancel it. "
"You know? A group of men in black, in front of your wedding, forcibly pull away the feeling of the man you are going to stay together for life? The pain that tore the heart and lungs. I thought I was close to happiness, that I could live happily with the man who can take care of me from now on. "
"Now, I'm here. I'm pregnant. I just got a call from him from prison. My heart is in a mess. He doesn't know that I'm pregnant, but I don't know how to tell him the truth. What's more, I don't know how to tell him. It seems that I am attracted to that man again…… " That's what she's most troubled about.
The body's betrayal, perhaps Lin nuofan can accept, she can also forgive themselves.
But the betrayal of heart? She was unfair to rinovan, cruel enough. She can't hurt him any more. She can only admit her life.
"My heart, here, is in a mess. I don't want to see Cheng Haotian, but I don't want to see that big brother. I want to hide. I want to disappear from the world and hide anywhere. As long as I am with my children, no matter who they are, it doesn't matter." Muzixi suddenly wants to escape from the world
Escaping from her seems to break up the two hearts. Escaping from chenghaotian, the man who makes her struggle and contradict, also escapes from the man who makes her feel guilty Lin nuofan, the elder brother who is even willing to compensate in various ways, is guilty
All these things have been stuffy in muzixi's heart. She has no friends, and no one will listen to her story in such a quiet way. She puts all the things in her heart deeply. If she doesn't say it again, muzixi is afraid that she will be driven mad by herself.
"Miss Zixi, I know that you tell me so much. It's true that I'm a friend, so I'm glad to hear you say so much. However, we are all arranged by God. We can't disobey. We can only go on step by step. Although Mr. Zixi is cold, domineering and inhumane, we can see that He cares about you. " When Nancy heard muzixi finished speaking, she began to comfort her.
Her words suddenly shocked muzixi
"Care about me? Why don't I feel that he seems to care about this fetus in my belly, not me. " Muzixi unconsciously put his hand on his belly again, and his eyes were speechless
"There is a saying in China that it's not the true face of Lushan Mountain. It's only because I'm in the mountain. I've heard the poem before, and I think it's very good. Later, someone told me the meaning of the poem. I think the reason why you can't see Mr. Lu's true heart is that you've been covered by your anger for a long time, so you can't see Mr. Lu in your eyes."
"Is that so?" Muzixi was confused by what Nancy said.
"At least in our opinion, we have seen, Miss Zixi. Sometimes, there are things that God gives us not only eyes, but also hearts. That is to say, we must see through our hearts. Do you know?" Nancy seems to be the lobbyist of chenghaotian.
The two never spoke again, and the moon rose slowly. The moon also blocked many stars.
When the cool night wind blew, I said something like this to Nancy, and muzixi's heart gradually calmed down. Yes, everything is arranged by God. What we can do now is to obey God's arrangement.
Now that you have a child in your belly, what is more important to you than this child?
Muzixi has put all his hopes on the fetus, which is not known to be male or female.
As the night grew colder, Nancy felt the coolness coming from her body, stood up with muzixi, and walked back slowly together.
On the balcony, chenghaotian is still smoking. In a short time, a box of cigarettes has almost been smoked. The ashtray is full of cigarette butts.
When muzixi returned to his bedroom, chenghaotian had calmed down his doubts and anger.
Muzixi sees that her mobile phone is fragmented and scattered on the ground. She looks at chenghaotian strangely and points to the debris on the ground. She doesn't speak, but looks at chenghaotian with questioning eyes.