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  I saw his face harden and his eyes freeze over.

  “Why?”


  “… Dirty… dirty…”


  I crossed my arms, not wanting him to touch me. I did not want to dirty his hands.

  I felt that I was dirty. From head to toe, there was a stain that couldn’t be washed clean. In my heart, Dongyu was someone that couldn’t be sullied. I didn’t want to dirty his hands.

  However, he seemed to have misunderstood my meaning. When he heard this word coming out of my mouth, he slowly retracted his hand.

  I saw the light in his eyes dimming, devoiding itself of luster, and even… a hint of indescribable disappointment.

  He seemed to be asking, “How did you become like this?”


  I couldn’t stand the look in his eyes. I lowered my head and crouched helplessly.

  I wasn’t sure how long he stood there for, looking at me, studying me.

  I only saw that he suddenly turned around and left. Despite Han Xiao’s repeated urgings, he walked away without looking back.

  Han Xiao ran out, after him. After a long time, she returned – I saw both resentment and helplessness in her expression.

  “Xiachun, what’s the matter with you?! You have not said a word, not a word. What happened that night?!”


  I didn’t say anything, all I knew was that Dongyu was gone. But I thought, just go. The farther you go, the better. Don’t… look back again.

  I didn’t need his care anymore.

  That night, I still did not have dinner. Han Xiao could not persuade me either. My indifference almost caused her to break down!

  As she stood there at a loss, her mother shouted from outside, “Xiao Xiao, someone’s looking for you!”


  Han Xiao left the room. A few minutes later, the door was pushed open again. However, I noticed that the footsteps sounded different.

  When I finally looked up, I saw Su Qi walking into the room, his face ashen. When he saw me, he was stunned for a long time before he walked up to me and squatted down.

  He reached for me.

  Surprisingly, I didn’t push him away like I had pushed Dongyu away.

  All I could recall was that my mind went blank when he tried to hold me. I couldn’t think of anything. I didn’t dare think of anything.

  But later, I realized that back then, perhaps I just really needed a warm embrace.

  Su Qi couldn’t give me the warmth I wanted.

  But I dared not hope for the warmth that Dongyu could give me.

  Besides Su Qi, I didn’t know who else could give me such warmth.

  When he wrapped his arms around me, tears simply flowed from my eyes. They surged and flowed as though from a broken dam. I couldn’t hold them back anymore.

  Maybe it was my tears, my suppressed sobs that tore at his heart.

  He hugged me tightly and choked, “It’s my fault. Don’t cry!”


  I cried harder upon hearing his words.

  “Why did you leave me alone yesterday?” I demanded of him.

  That question came almost impulsively.

  His entire body stiffened, as if all the blood in his body had frozen!

  These words stabbed at his heart like a knife.

  He rubbed my shoulder guiltily, his voice shaking. “It’s my fault… I shouldn’t have left you alone yesterday!”


  I questioned him over and over again in despair. “Even you left me alone, how could you?”


  …


  “Why?”


  …


  “Why did you leave me behind?”


  …


  “Su Qi… I have never toyed with you. I never did.”


  …


  He had no idea what had happened that night…… He only understood that I was asking him why he had left me there alone.