Han Zihao stared at Xu Nuan who was leaning closer to him while looking at him with her widened eyes and an expectant smile on her face.

  He pursed his lips and struggled with his feelings while staring at her blankly. After a long silence, he sighed and said hesitantly, " I……am not sure."

  She frowned but didn't say anything and waited for him to complete his words. "I……don't know if I like you or not. However, I know that you're no stranger to me anymore," he said while blushing a little and looking away from her foxy eyes while she was smirking gleefully hearing his words.

  " You know…that I used to like Jiang Yue. However, my feelings for her were not so weak that I could forget about her so easily," he admitted.

  "Although we have never been in a relationship and I know it's very cowardly of me to be still stuck on her memories, I think I will feel guilty if I say that I love you while I still can't forget about her," he said while looking at her with worry and guilt in his eyes.

  " It's not your fault……but mine," he admitted while raising his head to look at her.

  Xu Nuan who was smirking earlier was staring at him seriously while clutching her fists tightly, trying not to burst into tears in front of him. He was oblivious of the effect of his words on her. She knew that he liked her but his feelings for her were serious to this extent that he couldn't get over her even after more than three months is something that she wasn't expecting.

  She hasn't seen him for 15 years but how can he be in love with her? Is that even possible? She never knew that Han Zihao was so sensitive and emotional when it comes to such things.

  Her feelings for him increased after hearing his words.

  If this man can love her when she wasn't even with him, then how much would he love her and adore her if he found out that she is Jiang Yue? She can't imagine the way he would dote on her and pamper her to the core-

  Han Zihao stared at her and saw her sniffling while avoiding his gaze. He pursed his lips thinking that she was crying because of his words. He knows that he was at fault because he kissed her despite his mixed and confused feelings. It's not her fault that he isn't over his non-existent past, his unrequited love.

  "Xu Nuan, It was not my intention to make you uncomfortable. If you feel offended then I apo…"

  "Shut up." Xu Nuan interrupted him sternly while sniffling.

  She turned to look at him with her red eyes and took a deep breath before saying, " Don't say sorry. It's not……your fault. You did nothing wrong." It's her who is wrong, it's her who is lying. Despite knowing his feelings for her, she wasn't telling him the truth.

  She wants to tell him, more than anyone else she wants him to know her true self, her true identity. However, she was afraid that his reaction might be different than it is. She might be overthinking but the more you treasure something, the more cautious and fearful you become of losing it.

  " I am chasing you despite knowing your feelings for Jiang Yue. I should have seen this coming," she said bitterly while looking down.

  She cursed herself under her breath because it was the first time that she was feeling jealous of herself. How pitiful her situation is right now.

  He pursed his lips and clenched his fists seeing her condition. He was feeling uncomfortable seeing her pearl-like tears which she was shedding right now.

  "Just….give me some time." Xu Nuan raised her head and looked at him in surprise when she heard his words.

  Han Zihao looked at her and said seriously, " Xu Nuan, I……think it's time for me to let go of this past. It might sound weird for me to say this but……can you wait for me……till I sort out my feelings?"

  " I know that I can't live with these feelings forever and have to sort them out to move on. It would be unfair to you if I accepted your feelings without sorting out my feelings for Jiang Yue," he said seriously while looking at her.

  Xu Nuan looked at him with her lips parted in shock and surprise. She wasn't sure if she should be happy or cry on this occasion. He was telling her to sort out his feelings about her past self before accepting her feelings.

  In the end, both of them were her. One is her past, one is her present. 

  But she was glad that he decided to give a chance to their relationship and wants to let go of his past feelings. Even though he didn't say anything more than that, his gaze was clearly saying that the feelings are now mutual. Sometimes, words aren't needed to express their feelings.

  She smiled and looked at him with her watered eyes before saying, "Well, it's good that you're not a player and know how to move others' hearts. Otherwise, I would have kicked you on your…" she stopped before completing her words and looked at him while her gaze went downwards which caught him off guard.

  Han Zihao stared at her in shock and crossed his legs, trying to protect something precious was standing there awkwardly, distancing himself from her. How can she have such violent thoughts at such an emotional moment?

  "Anyway, it's good that you know what to do Mr. Han. I know it must be a difficult decision for you but……I am glad that you're trying to move on and are considering my feelings for you." she said before moving closer to him.

  He looked at her as she slowly closed the distance between them. She smiled and cupped his face between her palms. She smiled and slowly gave him a slow and sweet peck on his lips, parting soon and said, " All the best Mr. Han. I'll be waiting for you. And I promise, I will give you a surprise on the day you accept my feelings for you wholeheartedly." she said while smiling at him meaningfully.

  He was surprised and blinked at her after listening to her words in confusion. Surprise? What surprise?

  He blushed and was trying to not think anything dirty but his thoughts were wondering about a certain kind of surprise. His eyes widened when he started to imagine all sorts of things.

  He shook his head and closed his eyes to get those things out of his head, ' Han Zihao, Control yourself. Don't let her dirty thoughts affect you. Calm Down.' he took a deep breath thinking about this.

  Xu Nuan who was still holding onto his face stared at him in confusion. She chuckled seeing how cute he is. He is only cold and indifferent on the surface but in reality, he is the cutest man she has seen till day.

  Well, she was glad that only she can see this kind of side of him. She would be jealous if he had acted like this in front of other girls. 

  Because seeing this side of him, any girl would have fallen for him-

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