Chapter 219 - Communication Is Not Forced But Willing.
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Kamlyn update:2022-08-16 17:31
Xu Nuan was eating the porridge made by him and was lost in her thoughts when she heard him say something, " Hmm? You said something?"
However, after asking this question, she was caught off guard to see the serious gaze in his eyes. Her heart skipped a beat wondering why he was suddenly staring at her with such an intense gaze.
Han Zihao stared at her and pursed his lips before saying, " Xu Nuan, I am still waiting for you."
" Huh?" Her mind went blank upon hearing his words. She knew that there will be a day that she needs to face this, but wasn't expecting him to ask this question this way.
The look on his face made it even harder for her to say anything. What can she possibly answer? The truth that she has been running away, it's complicated for herself too.
He saw her being silent and continued, " The other day when I confessed to you, you let it away since it wasn't prepared by me and acted as if nothing happened. However, you're ignoring me after that, I don't understand why."
" Is it because it's too much for you? Do you think you aren't ready for a relationship? Or……you don't like me anymore?" He asked while looking at her seriously, waiting for her answer.
Upon hearing his questions, her heart leaped. She vigorously shook her head in denial and said firmly, " NO! That's not it. I……I just……I am afraid." She whispered while looking down at the bowl in her hands.
" I was happy when you confessed your feeling to me. However, I am just afraid that everything is too good to be true, you know. In my life, whenever something good happened, the misfortune always followed me like a dark shadow. I am afraid that……all these things will go away as well." she didn't raise her head as she doesn't want to see his expressions at this moment.
She hated being weak. However, the insecurities that were eating her up were making him feel insecure too. She doesn't want him to think that she was ignoring him because she dislikes him. How can she dislike him when she knows that no one can love her more than this man?
But for those who have experienced hardships since young, it's difficult for them to accept happiness easily. Because happiness always brings insecurity, the fear of losing that happiness. And the pain of losing happiness is more than the emptiness in one's life.
They prefer to stay alone in their shell, rather than letting someone in their space. Staying alone is more convenient than worrying about being loved by the other person.
Han Zihao saw her dimmed eyes with sorrow and took her hand that was on her knees and leaned forward while looking at her seriously, " Feeling insecure due to the changes is normal. However, running away from the situation because of fear and insecurity is not a solution. You need to face the problem someday. You can't keep running your whole life, right?"
" Being in a relationship is the same as well. There will be changes, committing to a person and a relationship is not easy after all. In a relationship, there will be fights, arguments, insecurities, and fear…..however, if there is love and trust then any problem can be overcome. And to overcome those problems, you need to communicate." He said in a low-gentle voice while caressing the back of her hand gently.
She rarely shows her vulnerable condition, but seeing her like this, he could see how broken she is from inside. Those people who don't show their issues much and keep spreading positivity are the most vulnerable from the inside.
" Avoiding the problem won't get us away anywhere. It will only create more problems and misunderstandings. Now it's up to you if you want to find a solution or keep running away from it. I have already expressed my feelings to you, now it's up to you whether you want to define our relationship or not." He said seriously, giving her a choice to make her decision.
He could have insisted on starting being together right away without wanting to talk about it. However, knowing where she is coming from, he wanted to make her decision herself. Communication is the key in any relationship and since he has seen how his parents part ways, he knows this very well.
If she is reluctant to talk about something, then he will wait for her and give her space. However, it was her who needed to gather the courage and talk to him.
Communication should not be forced but willing.
He had almost lost her once, but when he knows that she is back, he will give his everything to cherish her, love her and pamper her. After all, who will know the value of love more than him? He had lost her ones, but will never let that happen again. Because this time, he will be by her side. -
Xu Nuan was stunned upon hearing his words. It was his first time talking about love and relationships this much, otherwise, in the past, it was only her who was taking initiatives. Since when Mr. Sloth became a smooth talker?
A warmth rushed inside her seeing this hidden side of him. She never knew he could talk this much as well.
She took a deep breath to stable her emotions before saying, " Mr. Han, do you have time next weekend?"
He stared at her observing her emotions. He could see that she was in a complicated state and was dealing with the storm of emotions inside her, however, she was smiling despite all that.
That kind of girl she is.
" I have to see. I might have some important meetings. I am not a regular employee you know, I am the President of Han Corporations." He said proudly, trying to change the atmosphere.
Xu Nuan stared at him and chuckled seeing his arrogant response, " Really? If you're busy, then……should I ask Yuhan to go with me?" She asked, making his smirk falter.
Did he think only he can play with her? He sometimes forgets with whom he is dealing.
Upon hearing Yuhan's name, the smirk on his face disappeared and his expressions became dark and gloomy. Did she have to break the moment by calling that stupid's name?
He clears his throat and answers, "I….I think I am free. And if not, I can just shift those meetings to another day. But……where do you want to go? "
" There is somewhere I want to take you to. So……even if you're busy next Saturday, you're coming with me. Otherwise, I am taking Yuhan with me." she added the last sentence, souring his mood.
She chuckled seeing his gloomy expressions and ate the congee, " Hmm, it's delicious."
" It's barely seasoned." He stated indifferently. It was bland and won't be delicious since he made it according to her condition, to soothe her upset stomach, how can it be delicious?
She chuckled and said suggestively, " Seems like I am getting used to boring and bland things."
"……"
'Wait a minute…'
He stared at her, wondering if she was talking about the congee or him. Did she just call him boring and plain?
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