Chapter 375 - Left Of My Heart
"That’s why you always tried to get rid of me?" With slumped shoulders and drooping eyes, he asked.
"At first, that was the reason. But later, I was just scared of you."
"Scared of me? Why? I thought I was quite handsome. When did I turn into a scary person?" Jun Lin Na rolled her eyes at him. He was again forgetting the point here.
"I was scared because you managed to flutter my heart all over again. And the last person who made it flutter left it in broken pieces. Perhaps that reminder scared me even more. My mind was going crazy reminding me that the last time I was swayed, I didn’t end up well. But my heart was also convincing me that I should at least give you a chance. What if you turn out to be a different person?" Sighing heavily, she went on, "But I couldn’t tell whether I was ready to take that chance or not. There had never been a doubt in my heart that you are a good person. But I couldn’t tell if you were good for me or not."
"Tsk…… Coward. You left me all alone just because of your own fear. How mean!" Ye Jun clicked his tongue like a moody child who wasn’t happy with his mother since she dropped him off at the school. "You didn’t even think of me. Not even for a second. You just got up and left. And I didn’t even know when you’d be back. Isn’t that a torture to me? I was also scared of the idea that you might never come back."
Jun Li Na tightened her grip on his hands and said, "In all honesty, I left for your sake……" Ye Jun looked back at her eyes as she continued, "I wanted to give you a chance…… I wanted you to try and tell me whether we are worth it together or not. Also, I left for my self-respect. I couldn’t just force myself on you when I was broken myself. I needed time to learn to walk all over again. Only then, I could hold your hand without feeling ashamed of my own self."
"So…… What did you decide? Can I…… I mean am I worth it?" He asked earnestly.
"Um…… No." Ye Jun’s face fell and he looked like he was on the verge of crying. "I mean I couldn’t decide on whether you are worth it or not but……" With her palm against his cheek, she added, "But I decided that we are definitely worth the try." Ye Jun’s pale face finally showed some life. "So…… Mr. Ye Jun, can I have you all to myself?"
"Have?" He raised his brow inquiringly.
"Yes, have! I want you to be my everything. I want to care for you just like you did when I needed it the most. I want to watch over you, make you happy, and always be there for you. I want you to be mine, just like you have made me yours."
Ye Jun kept looking back at her in a daze with a silly smile plastered on his face.
"Let me sleep for a while longer. This dream is getting better than reality!" Jun Li Na wanted to roll her eyes at his silliness but she couldn’t help but smile. This idiot guy was ready to sleep for life if it meant that she would accompany him. How could he love her to this extent?
But every dream eventually ends and she had to wake him up now as well. She inched closer to him and wrapped her arms around him. "This isn’t a dream." Her soft breath tickled his ear and he realized, it really wasn’t a dream. Not anymore! "You are the most irritating person I’ve ever met in my entire life." Her voice halted Ye Jun’s arms in mid-air which he was going to use to hug her back. "But I don’t know how or where…… Somewhere between our stupid little banter, jokes, and care, I fell in love with you. As I said, you are irritating but I still want to spend the rest of my life with you making some memories filled with irritating moments."
Ye Jun didn’t waste a moment and took her petite figure in his arms. "Do you know how long I’ve been waiting to hear all this? I can’t promise you that I’ll be the best but trust me, I’ll treat you better than he did. I also can’t promise that I won’t make you cry but I promise that I won’t ever let you sleep with tears in your eyes. Most of all, I respect you exactly like I did when we first met. And that can never change."
He heard her sniffling softly and even felt a teardrop on his neck. He tried to push her a bit to wipe her tears but she tightened her arms around his neck.
"Are you sure about this?" She said in her choked up voice.
"About what?" He asked.
"I can only love you with a broken heart. Will it be enough?"
"I know I give the vibes of being a carefree person and a messy person. But trust me, I care about you the most because you are my world."
"Then I promise to love you will all the broken pieces that I have left of my heart."