Although smoking was definitely harmful, he had to admit that smoking could sometimes relieve stress, loneliness, nervousness, agitation, anxiety and other negative emotions and bring a sort of psychological comfort.

  The smoke curled upwards, and the flickering cigarette shone on Ding Ning’s increasingly sullen face. As time passed by, cigarette butts were piled up on the ground.

  Ding Ning ferociously flipped the cigarette butt which hit the wall, followed by sparks. When he subconsciously picked up the cigarette box and wanted to light up another one, he discovered that the box had been empty.

  Looked at his phone, he found that it was already after the midnight, but Ling Yun and her mother still had not returned, which made his heart covered by huge psychological shadow.

  Was she experiencing the extravagant life with brother Junwei? Or holding his arm with a smile among a group of so-called upper classes, highlighting her distinguished status as a rich lady? Or groaning under him?

  He had thought that he could freely bless her as a good friend, a good buddy and a bestie, and watch her get the happiness she wanted.

  However, when it happened, he found that he couldn’t do it indeed. At the thought of the intimate relations between she and other man, he felt so distressed and breathless as if there was a huge stone on his chest.

  He seemed to have been bewitched. The more he was unwilling to think about it, the more he thought of the unsightly scene of she and other man.

  It made his face pale, his blue veins protrude on his forehead, his eyes bloodshot and his hair messy like a chicken coop. He was wrapped in ferocious aura which was dense and cold.

  Chu Yunxiu didn’t come back neither, so she was probably with Ling Yun. It made him thought that he still had a chance. Otherwise he couldn’t hold back his inner hatred at all.

  Chu Yunxiu paid great attention to women’s reputation, and was very strict with Ling Yun. In particular, she was a snobbish and shrewd person who wouldn’t loose the falcon until she saw the hare. Even if she was very satisfied with that Junwei, she would not allow them to have premarital sex. Nevertheless, anything was possible. If Ling Yun was willing to do that, Chu Yunxiu could do nothing to stop her.

  As far as Ding Ning knew, during so many years, Chu Yunxiu had never spent the night outside.

  First, a buxom widow must be either married,buried or shut up in a convent. She paid attention to her reputation and didn’t want to get involved in gossip. Second, she had a pomeranian named Doudou. She spoiled it as if it was her child, so she would never leave it alone at home overnight.

  Dog, yes. Ding Ning suddenly got an idea. How could he forget the damn dog.

  Pomeranian looked very cute, but it seemingly never ended when it started to bark. In particular, the damn dog despised him like Chu Yunxiu, and kept barking at him every time it saw him.

  He had often bullied the dog that threatened him on the strength of its master’s power when Chu Yunxiu was not at home. However, now it became the hope of looking for Ling Yun.

  He hoped that this damn dog was intelligent. Ding Ning got off the car and quickly walked to Ling Yun’s home.

  At this moment, the car light in the distance shone, which made Ding Ning refreshed. Could it be possible that they had come back? He immediately stopped his steps and hid in the darkness.

  The car was not the black Mercedes-Benz Zetros as Ding Ning expected, but a taxi which directly ran to the door of Ling Yun’s home and stopped.

  Ling Yun who was yawning and Chu Yunxiu successively got off the car. It seemed that Chu Yunxiu was in high spirits, humming a tune.

  Seeing that they were safe and sound, Ding Ning suddenly felt relieved. When he wanted to go out and call Ling Yun, but thinking that it was late and Chu Yunxiu was unfriendly to him, he hesitated.

  However, his heart was filled with doubts. Why did Ling Yun ask for leave? Why did she turn off her phone? Where did they go at night? Why did they come back so late?

  If he failed to figure out these doubts, he could not fall asleep tonight. He did not notice that his mind unconsciously had a subtle change which made him far more jealous than usual.

  As the taxi turned around to leave, Ling Yun and her mother entered their apartment. Doudou began barking with grievance. Chu Yunxiu managed to appease the dog after a long while.

  Ding Ning quietly approached his original apartment, quickly opened the door with a thin steel wire, and quietly sneaked in without turning on the light.

  With his sensitive ears, as long as he wanted to eavesdrop, the separation of a wall was not a problem for him at all.

  Watching the room which had been cleaned up, Ding Ning felt inexplicably sorrowful. It was the apartment where he had lived for five years. It was filled with his memories. It was impossible for him to have no attachment to this place.

  Lying on the familiar bed with his ear clinging to the wall, he knew that Ling Yun’s bedroom was on the other side of the wall. They had often played the morse code game.

  There came the sound of shower from next door. Chu Yunxiu was still humming a tune and feeding Doudou in the living room, so the one who was taking a shower should be Ling Yun.

  As he thought of the sexy scene of Ling Yun taking a shower, the evil fire that he had suppressed with great difficulty went wild again.

  After secretly cursing himself that he was shameless, Ding Ning tried to concentrate on listening to what they were talking about.

  It always took Ling Yun a long while to take a shower. After half an hour, when Ding Ning was almost falling asleep, Ling Yun finally said, "I’ll go to sleep."

  "You are still going over there? Will he come?" Chu Yunxiu asked casually.

  "I don’t know. I will wait for him no matter he will come or not." Ling Yun said softly.

  Chu Yunxiu did not say something else. It seemed that she had entered the bathroom and begun to take a shower.

  She was still going over? Where was she going? Who was he? When Ding Ning was confused, he suddenly heard Ling Yun open the door of her apartment.

  Was she going out? What did Ling Yun go out for at midnight? Was she going over to sleep? Could it be possible that she was going to sleep with that Brother Junwei? Chu Yunxiu had no objection to that?

  Ding Ning’s heart jolted. He tightly clenched his fists, while the muscles on his face were distorted because of pain. He felt so distressed. They were in a relationship where they could sleep together?

  However, he soon found that Ling Yun was actually opening his door, which made his heart suddenly pound faster. With no time to think too much, he immediately hid under the bed.

  As the light was turned on, Ling Yun, who was in silk pajamas with bare long legs which were smooth and white, walked to the bed with drowsy eyes and fell to sleep.

  Was Ling Yun waiting for that brother Junwei here? Chu Yunxiu acquiesced to their date in his room?

  At the thought of this, Ding Ning felt his heart bleeding, and his face had turned ashen.

  Ling Yun suddenly got up again to turn off the light, and then fell on the bed again. He soon heard her slight snore.

  Ding Ning’s mind was in chaos, filled with jealousy and anger. He hated Chu Yunxiu for being snobbish and allowing Ling Yun to sleep with a man, while hating Ling Yun for passing her affection to someone else so soon with no self-respect.

  He loved her deeply, so he hated her deeply. Ding Ning who thought that he had guessed the truth had never been so angry.

  Five years of getting along with each other and the feelings he considered a treasure turned out to be not worth mentioning in others’ eyes. Five years of feelings was not comparable to two days of getting along with a rich person, and was cheaper than a diamond necklace.

  Jealousy made him lose his sanity. Why was every woman so fickle? So was Bai Qinglian? So was Ling Yun?

  Betrayal, this bloody word made him completely lose his sanity. His anger went straight to the brain.

  He wanted to retaliate. He wanted to make Ling Yun pay the price. Since she did not have self-respect and slept with other man casually, why couldn’t it be him?

  "Hiss……" He came out from under the bed like a ghost, rudely teared her silk pyjamas, and sealed her voice with Meridian Severing Hand when she suddenly awakened.

  With cold viciousness and madness in his eyes, he pounced on her whose eyes were filled with horror……

  The pain made Ling Yun frown, but she stretched out her arms to hold his neck tightly.

  At this moment, she had already seen that the one who was assaulting her was Ding Ning. Although his face became extremely vicious because of distortion, she smiled with tears and pain but no regrets.Two lines of tears slipped down from her cheeks.

  Since she first saw this boy who had a warm smile but was nervous and confused five years ago, she had a crush on him.

  After five years of getting along with him, she knew that he was the perfect guy whom she wanted to marry in her life. She had repeatedly fantasized about this scene where they were initimate in tenderness on their wedding night……

  However, she had never expected that this day would come so soon by surprise in such a rude way.

  Ding Ning who was inexperienced didn’t even notice whether she was still a virgin. The jealousy in his heart made him abreact like a mad cow. It was not until he kissed her with deep malice that she strongly resisted.

  He pinched her chin firmly, forced her to face him and watched her calm eyes and warm tears on her face. His eyes instantly turned red.

  With the corners of his eyes twitching, his face sickly blushing and his muscles distorted, he roared in a vicious and low voice.

  "Is money so important to you? Do you feel good when sleeping with him? Does he do better on bed than me? Tell me, tell me……"

  Anger had made him forget that Ling Yun could not talk at all. He thought that she was silently resisting, which irritated him and made him assault the woman, for whom he had wanted to care all his life, in a more violent way.

  Blood tears kept dripping, and Ling Yun’s painful cheeks were dyed red. He was hurting Ling Yun, while hurting himself.

  It turned out that he could feel so distressed. The impulse to destroy everything made him completely lose his sanity, lost in the madness of self-destruction and become increasingly violent and fierce. Ling Yun’s body was covered with blue-violet marks.

  She felt pain, not only the pain on her body, but also the distress for Ding Ning whose face was covered with blood and tears.

  She was so regretful. She should not have deceived him, let him down and made him sad, and asked for leave and turned off her phone as her mother asked so as to ignore Ding Ning and make him come to find her……

  She didn’t mind losing her virginity to Ding Ning. She had planed to do that, but she couldn’t watch him release the devil in his heart.

  No one in this world knew Ding Ning better than her. She knew that the guy who had always talked to her softly, spoiled, cared for and tolerated her in a gentle and considerate way was just looked inattentive. There was a terrifying devil hidden in his heart. Once it was released, it could destroy everything.

  However, he had too many secrets hidden in his heart, but couldn’t talk about them with anyone. What was more, repeatedly being disdained and mocked and disconnected from the ruthless and cruel society made his faith gradually collapse and all his anticipation for the good world burst like bubbles. All kinds of negative emotions smoldered in his heart and kept fermenting.

  In a life filled with grievances and repressed emotions, he had been tolerant, humble, persistent, confused, looking for what he wanted, struggling, working hard and guarding what he believed——

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