Chapter 595 - Give Up, Alright?
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夏染雪 update:2022-08-17 13:36
“Alright, sorry, it’s my fault.” Gao Yi gently caressed her face, her hairline, and her slightly-swollen red lips; with a faint look of anguish on his face. “Ruoxin, I don’t want to let you suffer anymore. I just want to treat you well. If I let you continue to be mistreated and unhappy, then what’s the point of me doing all these things?
“I’m going to head out first.” He gently patted Xia Ruoxin’s face, practically wanting to escape this unstoppable comprehension.
Hehe, she didn’t love him……
“Gao Yi, no, no. I’m not unhappy……” Xia Ruoxin hastily held onto Gao Yi’s hand. It was not like that; it really wasn’t.
“Alright, I understand already. I have some things to do. Just now, I was too emotional.” Gao Yi pulled her hands away and then strode out with big steps.
Xia Ruoxin fell onto the sofa. She really couldn’t reply to his question just now. Did she love him? Did she? She was grateful towards him and wanted to repay him. She was willing to do everything, even marry him…… because he really treated her very well
—so well that it made her unable to reject him.
However, whether she actually loved him or not, she couldn’t answer that question.
She didn’t understand; was it wrong of her to not want to trouble him?
Outside, Gao Yi closed the door. He actually hadn’t left; he simply leaned himself against the wall, running his fingers through his hair.
“Ruoxin, did you realize? Ever since you came here, you’ve never been happy again.
“If you’re not happy, then tell me, how am I supposed to persist?
“What I want is not your gratitude; neither is it for you to feel moved. It’s especially not your reciprocation. All that I want is your affection, your love.” He let out a heavy sigh, the sky outside silent in its own way.
It seemed as if it was about to rain.
He stood up and walked out, not knowing that somebody was watching him the entire time. After he left, that person finally showed themselves. There was a look of deep infatuation on her face, as well as a look of jealousy, and especially a determined look of possessiveness. It was somewhat crazy, somewhat psychotic, and also somewhat distorted.
“Yi, you’re mine; you’re definitely mine. You cannot be anybody else’s.
“I won’t allow it. I definitely will not allow it!”
She turned around, running very quickly. She was on the verge of losing him. She couldn’t accept this kind of ending. If things went on like this, she was really going to lose him. If he wasn’t a part of the Bai family, then who did she have to pay her back for the last few years? That was not a simple time; it was not purely waiting.
That was her youth, her love, her hope, and her future.
She pushed open the door. Inside, Bai Zhenfeng sat on a chair; and a picture remained his hands. Bai Luoyin’s eyes shimmered for a moment. He was thinking about her mother again. She really envied her mother; she had a man who loved her so much.
“Dad……” She approached him. However, when she saw the picture in his hand, her expression changed. That picture was not a picture of her mother-it absolutely wasn’t. It was a family portrait. Beside a woman stood a boy, and in her arms, she was carrying another child…… a very happy family. However, there wasn’t a man of the house. Because at that moment, the man was carrying his own daughter and refused to be in the picture.
Of course, that child was her, Bai Luoyin.
Why wasn’t he looking at a picture of her mother and looking at a picture of Wei Lan’s family of three instead? Did he not love her mother anymore?
“Dad……” she called out again. It was only then that Bai Zhenfeng placed down the picture in his hand. His expression looked a little unnatural, especially the moment he saw Bai Luoyin. He placed the picture down backward, unable to understand why he felt so out of sorts when he looked at the picture.
“Luoyin, take a seat. Dad wants to tell you something.” Bai Zhenfeng cleared his throat. It was the same feeling again; however, it wasn’t as perplexing as before. Bai Luoyin obediently sat at one side.
Bai Zhenfeng only looked at his sole daughter then. Since young, he had always doted on her, even more than anything in the world. After all, he only had this one daughter, biological daughter. It was just that he had forgotten that he actually still had two adoptive sons. These two children…… he had watched them grow as well. To say that he didn’t feel any attachment to them would be a lie.
Thinking up to here, he suddenly felt shocked. He couldn’t help but say, Gao Yi’s words seemed to have stabbed into someplace deep in his heart, making it unnaturally contract and bringing him an unfamiliar sense of pain.
Bai Luoyin felt slightly unsettled. Didn’t her father say that he had something to tell her? Why was he just looking at her without saying anything? Her heart suddenly felt a sense of uneasiness just because she realized that an apologetic look flashed across his eyes.
“Luoyin, give up on Gao Yi, alright? Dad will find you a better person. Let’s give him up. Actually, he isn’t that great, right?” After deep contemplation, he finally chose to give Gao Yi up because he really didn’t want his daughter to give her heart to a man who didn’t love her and end up missing out on her entire life.
Bai Luoyin’s face instantly paled; even the bottom of her feet felt like they were splashed with cold water. She frantically shook her head. “Dad, you’re joking with me, right? I have already waited for him for so many years. Didn’t you say that you would make Gao Yi marry me? That I would become his wife? Why did you suddenly change your mind?”
She was shocked and scared. She really couldn’t believe that her dad would say something like that. She didn’t want to lose. She never thought that she would lose. She thought that regardless of which woman was currently by Gao Yi’s side—in the end, the one that he was going to marry would be her…… not anybody else. She was Bai Luoyin, Gao Yi’s ex-love Bai Luoyin.
Bai Zhenfeng softly let out a sigh and reached his hands out, placing it onto Bai Luoyin’s head. Although Gao Yi wasn’t his biological son, it didn’t mean that he didn’t understand him. Gao Yi was extremely stubborn; the things that he had decided on, how could it be easily changed?
That’s why, in order to avoid harm, actually giving up was the best option.
“Luoyin, a relationship without love, what do you want that for? Dad just doesn’t want you to be mistreated,” he spoke gravely and earnestly. He was somebody who had been through it; he understood what that kind of marriage would bring in the end. It wouldn’t end with love.
Bai Luoyin endlessly shook her head. “Dad, I’m not afraid of being mistreated. What I’m afraid of is waiting for all those years in vain. I’m even more afraid that after leaving him, I won’t have any more joy in my life. I don’t want anybody else, I don’t want anyone else.”
She didn’t want that-she really didn’t want it. She didn’t want to lose Gao Yi, and she especially didn’t want to lose to that woman.
Bai Zhenfeng gently caressed Bai Luoyin’s hair. Everything that he had wanted to say, he had already said them clearly. He really loved Bai Luoyin dearly, and it was really dearly. That’s why, in the future, he wouldn’t joke about her happiness anymore.