" I did not want you to get hurt," said Shen Li as he tried to get away from her, a painful expression etched on his face when he noticed that Yu Dong's grip on his hair has tightened even more and he tried to struggle free of her hold. " I am sorry that I did something that hurt you and I promise that I will never do that again——"

  　　" But you do not regret it right?" she said as she bared her teeth and smiled at him eerily. " You do not regret throwing your life away, right?" She threw him back on the bed and stood at the edge watching him sit back straight. " My question wasn't whether you are going to do it again or not but whether you regret it or not, answer me that."

  　　He didn't, because Yu Dong knew he couldn't. She went nose to nose with him and asked in a deadly voice, " Why? Why do you keep doing this? What is it that pushes you to make a decision like that and don't say that it's because of your inability to have a child, because I know that's not it? It's something more than that because you wouldn't have done this again because I told you that I can heal you—-"

  　　" How am I supposed to believe you?" He spelt out what was in his heart finally as he tugged on his hair and swiftly pushed them back. " All my life everyone promised me that everything will be fine, my parents did…they promised me that if I sell myself I will have a better life, mother in law promised me that as long as I was nice, everything would be fine."

  　　"And you do not wish to trust me because of them?" snapped Yu Dong looking at Shen Li like he was crazy.

  　　" No, I do not wish to get my hopes up only to be disappointed," he replied with ease. 

  　　Yu Dong stared at Shen Li who was looking everywhere but not at her and sneered, as she clasped his wrist and pulled him from the bed. " You should not bother lying when you know that you can not lie, Li."

  　　"I am not lying," insisted Shen Li. 

  　　Yu Dong whipped around so fast that he nearly staggered to the floor. " Don't, Li. It is one thing that you tried to kill yourself but it's a completely different thing if you are lying to me as well. You know I do not like it when you lie to me, it pisses me off more than you can imagine, got it."

  　　Pisses her off? Well, that's good then, isn't it? 

  　　" Am I supposed to apologise, is that it? You want me to apologise like a good husband right? Bow my head and say that it was my mistake isn't that it, fine then I am sorry. I apologise, I am sorry that I angered you, I shouldn't have done that …I as your husband should not have shown my grief because that's not what a good husband is supposed to do!"

  　　" Are you f*cking kidding me right now?" Yu Dong stared at him in a daze, her anger getting the worst of her. " I did not ask for an apology!" She poked his temples with her finger and snarled. " I am asking you why are you doing this, why are you so angry, frustrated and upset with the life that you are living? Give me one f*cking reason! Are you even getting what I am saying to you?"

  　　" I think we should talk tomorrow," said Shen Li finally after he was done calming himself, it was pathetic that he was taking out his frustration on Yu Dong but she was the only one person he knew wouldn't let go of him, wouldn't give up on him when he wanted to do it himself. It was just cruel on his part but he was just so angry that he couldn't even get a hold of his emotions. " We are angry and I don't want us to say something that we both will regret tomorrow, so it's better if we just take a moment and calm down before discussing this matter again."

  　　He tried to walk away but Yu Dong clasp his wrist and wrapped one arm around his waist before pinning him against her chest. " I do not wish to hurt you Li, whatever the reason we are having this fight but if you keep pushing me, I swear I will. Do not provoke me then you are capable of, I am asking you why do you have to this?"

  　　Frustrated and angered at her stubbornness, he struggled and shouted back. " So what if I want to kill myself? It's not like I can't do it! It's my life I can do whatever I want with it, is there something wrong that I have done, I don't want it anymore why do you have to push me!"

  　　Before he could even react, Yu Dong pushed him against the wall not hard enough to hurt him but hard enough to make him wince. " Dong Dong what——-" he didn't even get the time to finish his sentence as Yu Dong raised her hand and chopped it at his neck, putting pressure on the base of his neck where it met his shoulder. He didn't even see what was happening when a wave of dizziness hit him and he passed out right then and there within ten seconds.